Year: 2017

Michaelmas.

Train seat. Tapping feet. Time to reflect on Michaelmas. Ask me to sum up the term and I would tell you that there is neither a word nor way. Michaelmas was a different colour every day and every hour; it was everything all at once. My 10-week-old notebook has been filled to the last page with mingled entries, observations and remainders of the term (formal dinner meal plaques, cross country numbers, a red leaf, a carol service leaflet). Now, flicking through it, I’m trying to process it all; trying to decide what to share. It would lack nuance to say I came to university without expectations because I sort of realised their latent presence throughout the term. One thing was certain: I knew it was going to be busy – I was going to make myself busy. I didn’t, however, anticipate the casualness with which I came to develop an addiction for over committing. At times, I had so much to do that I’d just crack open a tin of baked beans and stare at the wall for …

Shades of suddenly.

You go to university and suddenly living becomes very loud – a sort of wonderful nightmare. I think, for many of us, autumn in Durham has consisted of a series of ‘suddenly’s’ that creep up, unnoticed, only to pounce at the most unexpected of times. Suddenly smiling, privately amused at the creative notions you come up with as a means of trying to remember people’s names. Turning it into a game. Although, more often than not, you remember every funny little detail: their favourite place to get fish and chips, the name of their black Labrador. Everything apart from their name. Suddenly startled at how many cups of coffee you can manage to swig in a day (and not feeling bad about it either); revelling in the routinely holding of these warm mugs of caffeine to the chilled stones of your teeth. Suddenly overwhelmed by the wealth of information at your fingertips as you enter the library for the first time. The smell of books, knowledge, facts, interpretation. Suddenly realising that you are being talked to about dodecaphony by an …